Thursday, August 31, 2006
A year ago, a meeting of two people for the very first time was suppose to happen. But it did not.
A year later, present date, a supposed meeting of the same two people still is no goin to happen.
How about next year?
As I pack my belongings for my trip, I think to myself was I right to have choosen to go for the trip? How selfish i have been to leave my poor hurt, helpless and lost girlfriend behind. So I thought and thought considering the fact that the suitation of us now is rather ironic. Two parties wanting so much to meet each other but fearing the outcome. I plead to any Angel or God please do not let anything happen to my girl. She's priceless and I would live a life of regret only knowing that "Take cab home la" was all i said befor i left.
Life always has a way of giving you decisions to make which are tough. Both choices might seem independent yet in the big picture they are actually very dependent on each other. As i hear her wiping voice, i cannot help but tear. No words except "I am not going le" can ease her pain.
Memories from the past tend to come back and hunt you. I cannot say or do anything to go way as its all a battle of one's mind. Giving in to the demons would eventually cause u to lose everything you think is nothing. But after you lose it you tell to yourself "if only...". Like Craig David sang :" You don't miss your water till the well runs dry."
I apologise for not having the ablility to protect you, I do not have the courage to face you and I thank you sincerely for risking your heart with me. Words mean nothing without action. But since i cannot take action. My words for you now are: Hang in there for the next 2 weeks. I know its going to be tough but try alright. Try like you always do. Remind yourself whats coming back to you the next 2 weeks. Your Stupid Boyfriend.
Last but not least. Happy Birthday to ME!!!
READY OR NOT? VIETNAM HERE I COME!!!!!
1:05 AM
and this is all for our chemistry lesson today.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Leaving for Vietnam in 2 days. Screwed uped things with her once again. All the world have to say to me now is "Wonderful Daryl, you will not being seeing her for the next to weeks and this is how you treat her. Well done."
No matter how much this hurtsI wanted you to know,My heart remains with you.Everytime you try to make things right for once, they all go wrong.
9:06 PM
and this is all for our chemistry lesson today.
Monday, August 21, 2006
An abstract from Shakesphere's Macbeth:
Act I. Scene VII. - The Same. A Room in the Castle.
Macbeth: "False face must hide what false heart doth know."Nah, just joking. But here is the first stanza of
Dream Theater's - As I am.
Don't
Tell me what's in
Tell me how to write, don’t tell me how to win
This fight
Isn’t your life
It isn’t your right to take the only thing that’s
Mine
Okay thats about it for today. Wish me lucky for DEL. And to people who feel like me, do what you wish just never forget about the one you love and care for before its too late.
To her: Its just you and me from now on, no one is going to take that away.
10:53 PM
and this is all for our chemistry lesson today.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
If only people knew what it is like to have an addiction.
9:54 PM
and this is all for our chemistry lesson today.
Friday, August 18, 2006
EM3A paper today was rather okay. Was able todo most of the questions. ACDA paper is tommorrow, lets hope i can past.
Seeing Is Believing; Believing Is Seeing.
We fancy that what we see is based on rational observation, but because of our suitcase of expectations we are much more likely to see what we want to see.
10:19 PM
and this is all for our chemistry lesson today.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
I stopped,I turned,I took alook aroundAt all the lights and sound,And frankly speaking,I do not really like it.Something for the horny ones:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NpOer1QcyaU
10:09 PM
and this is all for our chemistry lesson today.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Gone are the days where I used to sleep early and woke up the next day early in the morning to catch my favourite cartoons. And i would have carrot cake or laska for breakfast. Gone are the days when i would have to wake up early in the morning and drag myself to school just to watch some cute girl walk pass my class or play soccer after the school bell rings. Gone are the days when i could go for lectures and sleep but still manage to catch up with work and pass my exams.Gone are the days I would call her and just talk through the night.
Still are the days I get scolded for not being able to fulfil my role ask a son. Still are the days I disappoint people for not being able to fulfil my role as a boyfriend. Still are the days I would stay up late and just play round after round after round of game.
Hoping for the days when I could do what i was. Hoping for the day i could spend eternal with you. Hoping for the day everyone stops and reflect what really do they want in life and before they realise its too late.
6:57 PM
and this is all for our chemistry lesson today.
Saturday, August 12, 2006
People reading this.. Hello and let me ask you what do you think of the following:
-a plate of char siew rice with lots of sauce
-a freshly baked sheperd's pie
-a cup of mango green tea with jelly
i know this has totally nothing todo with any of you but i does relate to some. =)
cheers enjoy the weekend.
3:49 PM
and this is all for our chemistry lesson today.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
well aft so about close to 1mth, i have finally decided to come and edit and start blogging. Hope you like my new blog template. Anyway today was national day. considering the time i am blogging. haha. HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! spent the day at my aunts place afor lunch and went for the parade with dearest. the last parade at the national stadium until the rebuilding finishes. the parade was a bash. i love it! no matter how tired and all, u will sure be bond to join in the fun. its been a long time since i said the pledge and sang the national anthem. the fireworks as always was beautiful (you're beautiful). enjoyed my day. ^^
anyway, my life now is kinda screwed =x exams next week and i know shit about my work. haiz.. i tink even if i slog for the next few days i can only manage to pass 2 if im lucky 3. im sure TP is no more hope. oh well.. and dis sat is 8th mth OMT.. at least i have something to look for and live for in my life.
recently watched a few shows.. right exams next week wth did i find the time for shows(dun bother asking) but here goes took some phrase from each movie and editing it for your reading pleasure:
1) Click - as always, shows by adam sandler are always full of humor and meaning. this is no excpetion. click reminds us of the impt tings we have in life and not to neglect them. show worth watching. made every cent of my 9.50 worth it.
"We're always chasing the pot of gold, but when we get there, at the end of the day, it's just corn flakes."
2) Crash - Blacks, whites, rich, poor. guess you should kinda know what this show is all about. 48hr 4 different groups of people. This movie surfs to remind to never judge a book by its cover.
"It's the sense of touch. In any real city, you walk, you know? You brush past people, people bump into you. In L.A., nobody touches you. We're always behind this metal and glass. I think we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other, just so we can feel something. "
3) V for Vendetta- I've just only watched the first part of the movie but judging by it, i love it already. all i have to say for the show is that it leaves us to wonder is everything said by the govt and news reported true? all are somethings a big cover up??
"There's no certainty - only opportunity."
"We are told to remember the idea, not the man, because a man can fail. He can be caught, he can be killed and forgotten, but 400 years later, an idea can still change the world. I've witnessed first hand the power of ideas, I've seen people kill in the name of them, and die defending them... but you cannot kiss an idea, cannot touch it, or hold it... ideas do not bleed, they do not feel pain, they do not love... And it is not an idea that I miss, it is a man... "
well thats about it. if ive not managed to convince you to watch the movie, it doesnt matter. just wanna share my thoughts with you all. Perhaps if i have succeed in persuading you, you could also consider this movie titles:
-Frequency
-Unbreakable
-A Beautiful Mind
-Forest Gump?
Currently listening to "Fix You- Coldplay".
2:24 AM
and this is all for our chemistry lesson today.
